To The People In My Life

To The People In My Life
March 1 2006
Current mood: lonely
Category: Friends

To The People In My Life (a co-worker sent to this me and I think I needed to hear this),

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a
lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for
that person...

When someone is in your life for a REASON,

it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty,

to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend and they are.

They are there for a reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an
inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the
relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die.

Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire
fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on..

Sometimes people come to your life for a SEASON, because your
turn has come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy

BELIEVE it, it is REAL.

But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you
must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what
you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your
life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a
reason, a season or a lifetime.

And the Invites Play on...

We were going to address today but there are so many addresses that I still need to collect. I spend the entire day (starting at 8am) preparing addresses (inner and outer envelop wording) and collecting missing addresses (which will continue until mail out date, I am sure). I was also organizing the A and B list. A list are getting sent out first, family first. Then the B list, friends and co-workers.

I dropped of the invites to be printed at Kinko's Saturday, estimated time of completion was Sunday at 3pm. At 3pm there was HUGE TYPO and they closed at 5pm! This is particularly frustrating because I have been staring these and working on these for what seems like hours and days and weeks and months. I am also very self-conscious about my typos and mixing of numbers. My dyslexia has been source of shame and motivation for as since as I can remember. Well,...Our paper supplier was out of this paper. It was too late to fast order more paper from them. This required me going to two different paper stores in town. The lady at PaperZone was a guardian angel! Very helpful. I left with a whole ream. I raced home to make the edits, save the as PDF files, copy to a jumpdrive. I found myself going back to Kinko's for them to convert, print and cut AGAIN. I got it done just in time by 5PM on the dot! [Seth was snowboarding and Amy was bowling.]

Anywho...Amy is going to assemble during the week.

Saturday is addresses.

As I told a friend, while this is stressful. Seeing Seth's face as soon as he got back Mt. BAker when he assembled the first one, picking me up, holding me and saying how proud he is of me just makes it all worth it!

So far we (Amy, Amy, Curtis, Seth, Shannon, Nancy, Linda, and all others) are thinking 10am next Saturday and Amy and Curtis's we will be addressing until burnout. Finish and stamp on Sunday (Minus Shannon, she has to go back south Sat night).

It's coming together. It really is coming together. *sigh*

I got angry for the 1st time, really

Holy cow. I have been maxed out. It seems that no matter how many time I count my blessing I find myself stressed to the brim. I feel like I am doing everything textbook correctly. I am working out semi-regularly (maybe over doing it here and there with a breaks sometimes). I am taking time to read. I reward myself with my fav coffee order to celebrate mild achievements along the way. I am using this Lent time to be more prayerful. I have scaled back any talk about work when I get home, even if the day was super. I check-in with myself before agreeing to take on another task. I am eating healthy.

Why am I so darn stressed. I know how this sounds. But I feel like things are going swimmingly, yet I have the apprehension that a shoe is going to drop. Lately, the shoe is me. I just drop. I have been tearful. I have been moody. I have even backed out on the all the aforementioned healthful things I do because I am to mentally drained for self-care.

Today, for the first time, I was angry. Correction, I was screaming at no one angry. I have NEVER EVER expressed anger like this before. I get angry, but usually it comes out in tears and complaints. This was out of body ANGER. What I was angry about isn't even the point. Truly. I was actually blacked out form this anger. When I came to, I was baffled because I had no idea where my eyeliner was. It was in my hands. I blacked out throwing it. At least, this is what I assume happened.

I am shaken because I have NEVER experienced this before.

What can I do about this? This frightens me because, like I said, I am technically doing everything right.

I am making a lavish lasagna right now. Maybe this will help. JK

the shoe company that saved June 27

Okay, okay, maybe not saved June 27. But I am thrilled. I have been looking for the perfect pair of shoes longer than I have spent looking for a dress. Dare I say, I think I hold the record for getting engaged on the Thursday and finding the dress on Sunday!

So I found these shoes a few weeks ago on Ebay -discontinued black and white spectator peep toe Lords at the just the right height. Before me, at the very last second, I was outbid. Did I mention that they were discontinued? So I then spent the subsequent days searching and searching for any place that had these shoes in my odd size of 6.5. Fruitlessly, might i add. I even emailed places who were blatantly out of stock. After letting them be prevvy to my situation, I requested them to contact me should these discontinued shoes surface.

Then....I get an email from this random ma-and-pop-shop in Lake City, FL! Some lady came in and returned her pair - yes, in size 6.5! "Girlfriend, you are so lucky! Do you realize how impossibly these shoes are?!" she says.

I am thrilled! I know that this is a seemingly petty little detail but I LOOOOOve shoes. It is my one indulgance.